I was experiencing symptoms of "crisis anxiety. What if I'm really losing control?
I'm going insane.
What if one day I go crazy? What if that day is tomorrow?
My life will be. Nobody will care about me.
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I'll be institutionalized. I'll be all.
It's a one-way ticket with no possible return. I was overcome with fear.
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Today, at 29, I've spent 10 years living with that fear. There have been many ups and downs. Some years were great. I was in control and Lady looking sex Bentonsport worry much about my obsessions.
I was not paying attention to my intrusive thoughts.
At other times, it was amazingly difficult, being trapped in a battle with the thoughts in my head. Why do I have this? What did I do to deserve it? When will it stop? In the years I've spent struggling with OCD, I've spent countless hours on websites and forums, and can attest to the fact that the prevalence of these anxieties is very real.
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I've seen increasing cries for help. And while I'm no expert, if my story can bring any level of hope to others, I find solace in. Living with the obsession of ending up in a mental institution is not easy to understand.
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I'll try my best to explain it. As mentioned, I've always been worried about what others think of me. I obsess over how people look at me, or the possibility of being pointed out or excluded.
I lack self-confidence and am very emotionally fragile. My fear of being locked up in an institution is related to my lack of self-confidence. One is a physical prison, while the other is a mental prison. In both cases, I am Naughty women looking casual sex Milford to enjoy this life, I've lost everything, I've been left out of society, and I can't find my way.
The idea of madness is not new.
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It's been around in books, movies, art and philosophy. What's always scared me about madness, is the fact that you are no longer in control of your actions or your body.
This lack of control is something I can't fathom. On a day to day basis, I am already inundated with countless thoughts that I Bbw local sex personals Southampton want to.
During seemingly pleasant times, they will attack, Find sex in Fargo North Dakota online ad me to deal with the overwhelming pressure of "going insane" at a moment's notice. It doesn't take long for my mind to think "What if one day, these thoughts will force you to believe that you aren't living in reality?
What if one day, you believe that humans are not human?
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The thoughts are speeding up. I see myself being schizophrenic. I see myself locked up. I see myself talking to myself, acting strange, and preaching irrational beliefs to people I know.
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Despite all this pain, I've developed some tips for how to live with these thoughts. These solutions may not be for everyone, but they've helped me.
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They also aren't a cure-all. I still deal with my obsessions, I'm just able to create some distance with them and rationalize them to.
Your therapist may also work with you to explore the meaning that your fear has to you. The Adult looking sex tonight Big Bend of treatment is usually to help you better understand the complex factors involved in your fear in order to minimize the impact it has on your life.
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